How bad do you want it?

The 1st trainer I worked with said this to me during my 1st fitness challenge. I had the chance to win a trip to New York City with tickets to a Broadway show. I’d never been to New York….and 9 years later I still haven’t. I missed winning by 4 pounds. Had I followed his instructions, I’d have had some amazing memories! But I was stubborn and lazy, still am. I’m working to change that. After gaining 20 lbs following a car accident almost 4 years ago I reached my heaviest weight- 153. I know, that’s many women’s goal but for my small frame, that was a lot. After looking back at old pictures that pop up in Facebook memories I see that even 130 is a bit much- which is where I’m at now. I’ve consistently lost 10 lbs a year the last 2 years. I’ve been stuck around 130 for about a year and recently have begun to see the high 20’s flash across the screen on the scale. 
I refuse to give up. Right now, I’m eating less, not eating out, saying no to cookies, Cheetos, soda and even pizza (although I did have ice cream last night). My biggest issue is working out. I procrastinate all day. I have a free gym membership and never go. But that changes today. It’s time to get this last 10 lbs off and finally reach a goal I’ve been after for almost 10 years. My body has been through 5 pregnancies over a 12 year period, I’ve had many injuries, I have life-long injuries from the accident, I’ve dealt with depression and emotional eating. It’s time. I want it. I want it BAD!!


Here we go again! Brazil Butt Lift…


The other day I was scrolling through all of my blog posts looking for something.  I realized how many times I’ve started over.  How many times I’ve begun new programs.  And how many times I haven’t finished any of them.  Two days ago I signed up to do the Brazil Butt Life Challenge on Beachbody.  I printed out the workouts, added dates, put reminders in my phone and told my kids and Hubby that I need their support.

I got up this morning, put on my favorite workout pants, best sports bra and my blingy Powerhouse Gym tank top, took my vitamins, drank my shake, checked on my Relentless Challenge mommies and now the shits about to get real.


It’s almost 11:00 and my 1st workout was supposed to be done at 9:15.  Where am I?  Still on the computer!  What?  I needed to post the daily post for Relentless!  And I wanted to write this blog post!  Okay, okay.  I’ll get up.  The longest I’ve stayed with BBL has been 2 weeks and even then I missed workouts.  So here we go…again…again….again……..again………..again.  I hate this program so much and am using that hate to finish it once and for all!!!  And I have to use it through Beachbody On Demand because I can’t find the damn DVDs anywhere.  I will defeat you, Leandro!